“And then when I woke up from that dream” the reality of the
situation was put before me and I saw everything for what it was and what it
was not going to become in my life. I promised myself that I would have a
healthy relationship, based on positive interactions with my significant other.
I would have a healthy respect for my relationship and I would want to continue
to nurture and develop my relationships based on independent and joint
successes. I would value the ability for me and my lover to blossom together,
and for us to work as a team. The love that would be built from time, committed
peace, hope and vibes so clear nothing could steer us away from our established
love, but as I laid down these foundations of thought to bring fourth for a
future relationship I began realistically comparing my experience to date with
this “attempted significant other” and well he absolutely was fitting the love
standards.
I realized that he not only wanted me to compromise my
relationship beliefs, but he wanted me to become a secondary figure in his
life. I would simply be left to his inconvenient schedule. My time would not
matter unless it fit his needs. My time would not be valued unless he saw the
benefit in the experience based on his needs. This is coming from someone I
knew for years, someone whom I had fallen in love with and experienced
vacations and joint ventures with. The past was easily forgotten, and this
present image of him totally left me humble, because it was ok to absolutely
disregard him as anything more than that distant memory. A simple response to him basically informed
him that I would respect his relationship even though he obviously did not, and
that I only wanted his friendship from afar…I would not be secondary in
anyone’s life and if I wasn’t recognized as a primary figure in his life then I
would simple go on.
That’s what I did with a simple end all text message! No I
wasn’t expecting a call or a reply back I just simply let it be.
