Needing and wanting and understanding the difference in the
two is made simpler when you are aware of your own individual desires. I have
wanted so much in life in regards to financial, educational, material and
romantic success that I have blinded myself to my own needs. Feeling a bit
flighty and a self-actualized failure of self of sorts, I have allowed myself
to swarm in the doldrums of my own self-created emotional prison. How did I
escape those tormenting feelings? By realizing my needs and wants and envisioning
a burgeoning desire ahead.
I wanted to be wanted and needed all at once, not taking
into fact that these two would walk hand in hand and at times in unison in my
life. I gave into simply wants thinking it was the steps I would need to
develop and grow into a new me, but the wants increased and became primary in
achieving. I no longer catered to my own needs and could not identify anything
steady and current in my life. Nothing concrete or in the inner workings of
developing into something meaningful ever mattered to me. A want could not be
seen or envisioned furthermore until now.
I dreamed of you. I dreamed that one day you would enter my
life and the two would meet each other head on. The want to experience and have
you in my life, would then summon in my need for you. Awaking to myself, in my
own self-imposed world is no longer a desire, but awaking next to you was the
wanting I needed to explore and expand further.
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