So let me get this right...I am more in alignment with my emotional self overall. Mentally I am able to run down everything that makes sense to me. I can look at everything from a desire, need and want perspective, and make a clear assessment of my outcome that I will be wanting. I decided that I need to mentally trust myself to not be as impulsive as I once was, and sometimes it's ok not to be so responsive or make a decision about something I may regret later, or it simply isn't for me. I am learning when to take a bow, and not an ego generated bow or nerves be damned bow, but simply stepping away gracefully because I can.
Physically I have noticed I have become one with my back aches, my breasts fullness and the swelling and bloating of my belly at times. The headache and moments when I am undone to everyone and then ready for the world all at once. I simply can be so untouchable and in an instant a molten lava. I am wanting and needing of YOU to the point of physical exhaustion, mental taxation. There is in fact enjoyment in the pain or tinge of jealousy. Oh yes, I can be a little jealous, a little envious of situational experiences and moments in time when I could have made a better choice or at least wallowed in the narrowing down of a bad decision, but yet I somehow coasted and maintained my head above water; which I am ever so thankful for.
So I am at a peak state of my mind, body and heart are at their highest levels and they are all roaring to experience and co-exist all as one, but in accordance with passionate exchanges and intimate connections and fantasies and desires of the now, there is nothing like the intensity of the sunnier days ahead, the higher temperatures and the experience of hidden treasures and Summer love.