Our time was to be experienced in passing only, although it
appeared as if we were destined to be together. Truth be told, I didn’t feel
the connective spiritual piece of kismet, but I did feel the life support
received at your placement within my life.
It appeared that you were there to catch my heart from its
fall. You came into my life at a time when I needed everything but him, and I
received greedily everything you provided for me. Within that time nothing else
mattered and your transition into my life was easily accepted, as was my former
lovers exit.
The chemistry was there, the moments began to matter and I
readily accepted that there would be more to come. The days that would turn
into shared nights, to weekend events and activities to the art of dating and
occupying one another’s space. In a span of a weekend I felt like forever was
arriving, and I was ready to receive it, but then the reality of being blinded
by passion and so starved for love and attention and affection that your life
experiences and truth became secondary and not a primary reflection.
A secondary truth
afforded me the opportunity to make a decision about you, and me and within my
moments of deciding I knew that we would never be forever, and that my moment
of need was simply a moment of need and a time lapse within my life that I
would soon get over. Your truth was you have an existing relationship, but you
choose to live the life of a bachelor, you have a family, but they are neither
within your visual frame to interfere with your daily. You appear to be sweet,
charming and a true gentleman but yet your game and timing wears truly thin. I
can not escape any of the blame in my choosing to entertain this relationship
and life lapse, but yet it was meant to teach me another life lesson about
missing and longing and the true basis for a love like none other and best
understood when mutually and openly shared.
As I exit this summer romance I exit with a clean heart and
a heart knowing that in my time of need I reached out and jumped entirely into
a pan of love flames and fire, but yet I was able to untangle my mind, heart
and soul from the realities of this potential relationships ending…
I am an absolute stout lover
My love will wax and wanes like the moon
But my heart will never
turn favor from it’s truest and deepest feelings
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