The connection between us is surreal. At times I feel as if
my breath weakens when you aren’t beside me. My mind begins to spin when it’s
left to think about the dynamics of this love. I thought that I was a thespian
of knowledge in the realm of lovingly do’s in my experiences with
relationships, romance and overall projecting what I really am wanting. Well
what blew my mind was having the most honest conversation
I’ve ever experienced
in my life, and allowing that conversation to settle within myself and not sink
the depths of unknown, but to really infiltrate deep within my soul.
I neither questioned this life occurrence because in the
midst of our emotional wave I finally felt grounded. My days lengthened and my
nights crumbled without you, when I no longer felt the urges to curl my pillows
deep into me I finally allowed the thought of you to finally go, but now my
respect for you has heightened and my friendship towards you has increased and
my love for you has grown stronger. I respect that you aren’t where I would
love for you to be, deep inside of me… Intoxicating my mind and soul and
allowing room for absolutely nothing more than what we have discovered
together.
Heady I am, heavy is my head and in the midst of bloom is my
heart; I have nothing but love and adoration for you as I looked deeply into
the darkness of another man’s eyes I realized that you was the one who I was
entirely myself with. You was the one who completely knew me, you was the one
who thrusted the deepest inside of me as my walls snuggled deeply around you. I
came in temperaments from heroic to straight hectic. My vision and bond to you
continued to increase as I tumbled into a lifetime of ecstasy.
So now, I am here sitting in the middle of my bed still
captivated by this moment that has defined me. It has encircled my heart with
the love even deeper for you in the midst of being in another’s arms. I still
feel you and desire you and deeply LOVE YOU.
