Thoughts are to be expressed and carried out. Picture your thoughts as a dream catcher of sorts. Writing out what I think and am feeling at the time assists me with resolving an issue, or enabling myself to experience and express my thoughts in relation to what is going on in my life.
Without a shadow of doubt our bodies created this fairytale like world whereas love never falters, disappointment never begins and the emotional connection ceases to end. Whatever troubled me stood no ground in your presence, it's as if everything melted away. Your full stance and calming soul blanketed me and I feared no more.
Years later you would wonder why this connection ran deeply so, or why there was never anything as riveting and diverting of my attention span as when you are within my visual field. I have a preference, but I dare not say it...once I breathe the dragon of my volcanic love things will fail to remain the same.
This may be an emotional upset or even an appeal to my sensibilities in life, but I'd be damned if I wouldn't admit that I had fallen and this time I don't ever want to get up.
I want you right there beside me paining from pleasure and broken passion; only to revel in the thought of eternal bliss and sunshine.
Solace to my soul and wisdom to my mind and peace within my heart…
I am comfortable in predictable chaos. I am content with not knowing entirely where I stand. I have only looked into temporary needs, and filled myself to the brim never allowing my emotions to flow over. It’s an almost organized downhill descent to absolutely nowhere but an oppressed heart and shut down mind…and as I awake from this emotional nightmare I realize that it has passed me but yet hovers in the distance of doubt. What could I possibly fear?
I have been through personal transformations that resembled being upended and having had the rug removed from under my feet, to walking blindly into a situation with faith and belief that all will work wonderfully well. I had no doubt then, but yet presently I continue to close the door on experiencing a wholesome and uncontested love.
As I close out several chapters to those that have entered and easily exited, I am seeing that what really matters is not the chaos, bu…