Love has never given up entirely on me! I say that with
pride and with amazing hope in the face of my experiences past, present and the
unpredictable future. I have never felt so emotionally raw and interrupted as
never before, and oddly it’s the most freeing feeling experienced.
I am aware of my main involvement in regards to love within
my world, and absolutely becoming saturated in the mask of emotions that wax
and wane like the moon! However, knowing what the saturation level of love was
clocked at, I decided to take a step back and a stance when attracting newly
beckoned romance, or finishing out a sizzling love loss.
I can’t contend with the fact that sometimes love is not
concerned with the diminished relationship that was with my former significant
other. Love pretty much had left me with no notice and no expected return date.
I literally had to learn that closure is a blessing when allowed and received,
and it’s not necessarily determined during the initial separation…sometimes
closure will not be given, but life and love must continue undoubtedly and with
the spunk to absolutely rue no day, but continue to march right on along.
I said goodbye to a distant memory, a toxic and negative
being that at one time meant the absolute world to me, but at this time his
essence is dead to me. There is no reentry into the windows of my soul when you
shut me entirely out. Not giving the individual the ability to choose to stay
or go was taken from me, and as you removed my rights to continue our love, so
was the rights removed for you to ever get the lost love back, and so I removed
myself from a connection so deep it literally beheaded me.
This time I have before me is for the taking. I am not
sitting comfortably and simply waiting anymore. I have found the rhythm in love
with life, and the ability to enjoy each and every waking moment. I must remind
myself of the amazing dreams I have allowed to accept into my fate. Everything
that I want and desire has never been forsaken, and just like with love from
significant others in passing and unpredicted love in the near future, it will
always remain supreme and free. Anything fleeting and not able to sustain the
intensity of a true love…walk on by!
