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A Healthy love: Mind body and Spirit in unison. What once mattered no longer imprints. What does matter evolves and lives on!

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I am on a Journey…and on my pathway I have encountered life situations that have tempted me, discouraged me, pleased me and left me doubting me, but in the end I have allowed faith and my life to simply fall accordingly. Each moment is to be experienced, but it’s what we understand and take from the experience that define US. When I like someone I become so involved within the relationship, that I forgot the main element of surprise…continuing to know and love thy self.












This is a personal admission that hunted me in several relationships, and it’s something that had become almost a natural experience for me. When you lose since of self and control over your own emotions you look toward others and their own individual life plight as your very own, no longer living vicariously through a person’s experience, but allowing it to define and mirror your very own. It becomes very difficult to rid yourself of these feelings, but when you step outside of yourself and take a hard felt and obje…

How to settle an open heart in a world of mixed emotions...

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Some days I am hot and other days I am cold. Some nights I jump proudly into my bed and roll around as if the world is all mine, and other nights I huddle in between the sheets and look at the bare ceiling wondering why there is a little indent on the right side of my ceiling and yet the left side lay smoothly.






My heart has healed and my mind lay open to all types of romantic interceptions, but yet I feel like Leonardo DiCaprio in Inception. I await my dream life and chase my reality in a sleeping state. Within my sleep I lay witness to everything that I could have possibly done to not receive your love and affections. As I awake I answer your call with trepidation, but also with a stillness within my heart that has allowed me to receive you fully. How can this be when our life situation is iffy at best with a chance of complication...

In my distance my soul silenced itself to you. I attempted to cut all ties and leave life as simply as could be, and within my simplicity I found my a…

The Chase: Until we find our very own balance and sense of self within love we will always be looking and never quite finding what we truly need.

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To give love out freely, but yet to walk away from a potential heartache yielding no expectation or desires to resume it once again has become the guiding force within my very own current existence. I have lived my emotional life gravitating to those whose hearts needed to be shown love. As I gave out all of my love and affections I soon realized that there were limitations of the heart when it’s not mutually reflected. You can’t continue to Nurse other peoples ailing hearts as your very own heart decreases in its size and productivity.


 Accepting the no expectations, no responsibility modules I was able to sail through life without thinking any further. To sustain myself in a losing battle of love I always thought it was best to keep your emotions and experiences at bay, but then I started to follow my heart and yet it attracted people who needed Nursing and healing, and yet again their awakening was seen as my ending. I limited and challenged myself at the same time. I faced an opp…