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Carnal Instincts: The Passion within exists

I have collapsed into the natural rhythm of answering a want, need and desire. Come to find out, this want, need and desire is a packaged deal. This want, need and desire have occupied my days and night’s, and this want, need and desire is not a representative at all. This want need and desires are the REAL deal; which has created a duality of emotions and thoughts to start running into one another becoming unnerving and exiting at the same time.
My objective as always is to put my needs first and to take in consideration nothing outside of self when it comes to the physical craving of my carnal instincts, but when my mind is seduced to the point of no comparison and return!
Oh Boy!!

Well I am giving into the mind seduction, which is creating a tidal wave of emotional openness and being receptive to new happenings…and I’m readily writing about this occurrence, which is literally in the melting pot of my current life status and situation. My thoughts have cooled and calmed and are e…

It was ALL a Dream : Fade To Black

I clasped the phone a little tighter. I allowed the conversation to linger just a little longer. I was seething with a rhythmic passion, as I imagined you beside me as you dipped your head a little closer. I closed my eyes and leaned into you a little more wanting your lip moisture more than ever, as the conversation continued my face began to become flush, my breathing was sensually labored and my legs began to outstretch and beg to be touched, centered and spread widely apart. I was aching for your touch as I cradled the phone to my ear a little tighter my fantasy was beginning to take flight until his tone stunted my world.

The more he spoke directly into the phone the more my passion bubble popped. I started seeing him in another light, and well understanding and adhering to an individuals daily planning can tame heightened passions just so far, and well my passion meter was writhing with doubt and defeat.

It was like cold water showered evenly on my head. I wasn’t entirely prep…

It's Your World

I won’t pull back!
 In fact, I am not backing down at all. There have been times when unanswered questions have crossed my mind years later. Desires that needed further probing and discovery, intimacy that was left unturned; wants and needs left to be desired after. You can never find this in another if you haven’t discovered your own personal openness to your very own intimacy and passion levels, how can you expect it from someone else?
The mantra I was rolling with was harboring no feelings of attachments and longed for desires, because life simply wasn’t set up for that existence when I thought about. Basically, I could be a dreamer, a lover, a romantic, a sinner and a saint. I could be your best dream or worst nightmare; it is whatever it’s going to be. I could not plan anything beyond the time frame I already existed in; I absolutely held no care or concern over being in absolutely control. All I can guarantee is my participation in this adventure.
It had become a key ingredien…

A lover's death with the past

I have once again thrown myself into my own enclosed life happenings which have all evolved around semi planning, constant daydreaming and channeling my inner golden tube of creativity and self awareness of exactly who I am, and whom I’m becoming. I am in awe and adoration of HER “Me”, and so I started the year loosely cutting the ties of experiences that haven’t kept my interest, but contented me enough to wet my appetite for rekindled romances that are forever stunted in their start to finish, and as each bond was severed I started to remember why the bonds had been broken and why it has become convenient to rekindled such fallen attempts at love, because disappointment is best served chilled, and apparently I was already one cup in!
He was someone I could see the present and future with. He was someone that I spent numerous travel hours with. To and from our homes cities to our planned getaways, it was like nothing else mattered, but our inability to compromise on balancing our re…

Hello September: Good Bye distant memory!

I knew he was not who he said he was, but what he wanted me to believe he was. He wanted me to believe that he was my future, and that I would have him in increments and that he would tell me exactly how our relationship would go!
“And then when I woke up from that dream” the reality of the situation was put before me and I saw everything for what it was and what it was not going to become in my life. I promised myself that I would have a healthy relationship, based on positive interactions with my significant other. I would have a healthy respect for my relationship and I would want to continue to nurture and develop my relationships based on independent and joint successes. I would value the ability for me and my lover to blossom together, and for us to work as a team. The love that would be built from time, committed peace, hope and vibes so clear nothing could steer us away from our established love, but as I laid down these foundations of thought to bring fourth for a future re…