It has always been you: The Fact Is I Need You

The emotional ties that I have with you has reached it's the upper echelon of no turning back, and in knowing this aspect of the connective ties that we share; just yesterday everything was put in perspective for me. I take nothing for granted and even in the midst of lost translation as we communicate strifes and difficulties the reality of this situation has reaffirmed my admiration and continued love for you.

It's my yearning to perfect this newly shared experience on life, and love and everything in between. I have always held an interest in the mythical maintained relationship via main stream outlet examples; but yet I did not have the opportunity to truly grow in the midst of a marked and expected relationship. I continued to dream independently in hopes that one day I would meet my significant other and know exactly what to do when he arrived, but yet everything I am doing and saying has come with strife and at times not a sense of mass appeal, but misunderstanding and misrepresentation; and well that has dented my ego of knowing it all and knowing whats best for me and my relationship to be had.

The hardest thing ever to listen to in life is a conversation from a point of pained love, and when two people of strong belief sets and self interests to make their points valued and known it was even harder to see the dominos of love collapsing, but yet there was something to come from this pained place in life.

I learned love will never leave us, it can have us impaled or in a stunted state of hurt and disbelief, but it is not within our best intentions to hurt one another, but yet to understand one another and in the midst of tangled emotions the lines of communications can become frayed, and so, time and space and a distant heart can be healed by simply declining to further promote the damage, but realize that we all make mistakes and our love and connective bond is deeper then the misunderstanding and that we matter the most on this uncharted life of love and gratitude that we are living within.

  If it is all within a name, then your name resounded deeply within me and continues to leave an imprint on me. My love for you continues to grow Tobias and it will never falter, my hopes and dreams are inclusive of you and with you and to continue to experience this world we are sharing and developing in unison, and so I say Thank You.