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Alert and Voluntarily Present....

There are so many signs and symbols someone can give, show or even dish out to you. Have you been paying attention? Minding the matters of what exactly that someone is attempting to tell you? Have you awaited nestled in the corner for the smoke signal and signs detailing just what you have hoped and planned for all along??? I can say that I have experienced the paralysis of waiting for a response, that I assumed I already knew the answer for, however, YOU didn't know I knew, so I patiently sat back and waited, and as time elapsed so did my recognition of my self, my desire and passions were placed on hold, my desires to move forward and continue to live life accordingly and trust that everything will happen for a reason if it is to occur...that reasoning and mindset never occured. What evolved was an emotionally challenged me. A female vulnerable to each and every move you made. I felt you linger and stay, and like the Fisheman, you threw your strings out to me, trapping me in you…

My Destiny

It's snowing in the winter wonderland of Englewood, New Jersey. I decided to get a mini break from the City life. In taking my time from the hectic daily of City life, I am currently reflecting on the importance of my life goals, and the people in my life who encourage my many passionate pursuits. Recently I decided to no longer let the case of what if's, could have been and be, perhaps and lifes maybe's get the best of me. As easily as it has been written, the hardest reality of was the emotional ties being cut and no longer crossed. It's like turning off an inner light in your heart.......I knew and know we could never be. I felt he discontent and the discord more than I felt comfort and happiness. Disillusioned and blinded to my reality of experiences......I set out to become someone I didn't know anymore. I pity myself then, but I championed myself as to what I am becoming now. I am not content or happy with how I responded to you throughout all of our times sp…

The Biggest of All

I wonder if in the future love will be diagnosed as readily as cancer and AIDs, or possible eagerly treated as influenza or a severe cold when you suffer from a broken heart and the ill effects of the love syndrome. Possibly a slight case of affections and love can easily receive a certain amount of magical pills that can wish away the feelings experienced if you choose to cure this UTI of the heart!

Let’s just say that I continue to face my strongest muscle in my body. I always assumed that your heart was no match for the human mind, because the heart did not (self-assumption) coincide with the in’s and out’s and logistics of one’s day. Well I am proven wrong yet again, and this time I am amazed about my heart and the capacity of love, lust and lingered emotions it has maintained and held for so long. Just when I was beginning to think that I would never want to express or experience that ill-gotten love and loved like feeling; however, I have been making amends with myself. I have be…

Ushering in the New Year, I welcome you 2012

I welcome in 2012 with many hope and dreams. I welcome 2012
Dear 2012,
You have started off amazingly refreshing and riveting for my soul. You have provided me with many outlets and avenues to continue to keep myself afloat, and also, motivated to continue to strive for my individual needs. My goals are attainable and within my sight. I feel entirely like a new woman. I continually say every year how I will change and transition things, but I seem to fall into that painstakingly New Year’s resolutions failed attempts……..but this year I have something motivating me beyond my earthly rotations. I have my faith and my passions, my family and my close knit friends, and also, my individual desires to make all my dreams, hopes and goals to come true. Also I am experiencing maturity at large!!!! I am growing individually each day, and having the ability to recognize growth points and milestones continue to push me forward, to not only continue to experience these feelings and emotions, but t…