Perspectives: I Desire You

I felt a sense of ease and comfort. I feel as if I've known you for the longest time, within the shortest of times. I feel as if I don't doubt or question you, because there is something entirely different about you. Last night as I was enroute home, I could have easily eased my car in the direction of home, but I decided to let the night's darkened skies lead the way, and so as I made my way to you I had not a drop of nervousness or fear. I was heading in the right direction. I was heading home.

My mind was made up, and so was my heart. I was neither sinking or swimming I was floating with no cares looking at the endless nights skyline. As I made my way towards your door a sense of awareness came over me. I was exactly where I was supposed to be, and just as you opened your door and guideded me in I felt welcomed. I laid my eyes on you and really started to look at you. I was impressed and interested all at once. I felt the passion and persistence of interest leap over me. I could say I've never experienced a sense of stillness and peace within my world of lust, likeness and interest until I experienced you, and I want to thank you for sharing your time with me.

I have been looking and learning others, but never valuing the time spent, messages sent and the in between experienced within a new formed union. I had no expectations with neither one of them. I had held a general interest, but a longed for lusting towards whomever I had identified at the time, was short lived. I craved more and assumed that it would eventually lead to everything I had longed for, but it never did. I was saddened and really blown away by the missed opportunities and longed for experiences that would never bloom into anything more. My responses slowed, and my reactions dimmed. I was neither interested or invested any longer so the ease of my longed for lovers and interactions lessened.

Then there is the inevitable possibility of you, and I welcome your entry into my world. I didn't need the corners of my eyes to stare at you, I simply was captivated by looking over you. I felt a sense of ease into my emotions of interest as I want for you swept over me and took me away into a world that I've always dreamed of. 

Passion, Desire and an absolute love. 

Believe me, because I believe in you...

I wonder if you think of me just as much as I think of you? Do you take time out of your day just to wonder what I had experienced during the day? I wonder if I told you how many times I dreamed of you day and night...how many times I watched you walk towards me, embrace me deeply and kiss me passionately never to let me go and always keeping me so close to you that I would never leave.

This poem came from the top of my heart. Everything had flowed smoothly, from my interaction with you and my initial meeting with you. I could have asked for just a little more, but I didn't want to be overwhelmed with the initial processing of newly "in interest" time. I bypassed you for awhile, because my eyes and my mind was dimly lit on one, but our time together shortly phased out. I wasn't broken from our departure, in fact I was assured that I learned a powerful lesson from our brief link up. I know what I want. I am learning what I desire and deserve regarding a relationship and overall experience with my prospective mate, and so these journeys in the realm of longing and love continues. I will not stop just because he no longer suited me. I will not falter in my quest on experiencing a true love.

So do I fantasize about you? Do you become a pending dream that's never ending, because I don't want to let you go just yet. If I break this dream then nothing will make sense and all that I loved for and wanted for will cease to exist...

I don't know what it is about you that allows me to feel the need to pursue you, but I'm wanting you, but I can tell that there's something in your eyes that tells me you can't ever belong to me and I'm needing to know why...but it's within this mystery that I wanted to know. I want to be wrong, but am I right?